Finally! At the Beginning.

If you are just joining me at Kosmic Egg Project, let me first welcome you to Tarot Possiblissities. I am so glad you have joined in. I hope many things forward:

  • You will read and learn a lot about Tarot and other things that you hadn’t been aware of before,
  • In my latest Tarot saga, you can find plenty to relate to and laugh with me, as I am, as all of us are, a Fool
  • Discover some answers to nagging questions about life’s mysteries,
  • Finally, that we can become friends in seeing the magic in our every day lives.

Please enjoy the journey and feel free to ask any questions,

If you are like me, with 20 decks collecting dust, or have only one deck well-worn with love, I want to welcome you, too. I very much hope that Kosmic Egg Project will provide a new perspective for you to put to work. I have every intention of breaking rules even as I value them so you have the chance to develop your own, unique understanding of the cards.

Even with so many years of working with Tarot, I am faced with a new question. Is it possible to write an autobiography with Tarot Cards? I mean that seriously. As I’ve said in other places I wanted to make these cards contemporary, as the Visconti deck was contemporary to its own time. I want the images to be recognizable yet sacred in an expression of a world I consider, though full of holes, holy.

This week I’ve been spending time creating design drafts and written drafts of what I hope will be a Kosmic Egg Tarot Deck and Book eventually. The\ five cards I worked on are “Aces”, four for each of the Lesser Mystery suits, and the One in the Greater Mystery suit. They are known traditionally as The Ace of Swords, Cups, Wands, and Pentacles, respectively. In this deck they will be known as Expression, Hold, Energy, and Material Aces. The Magician in most traditional decks is Male, but I have created my One in the Major Arcana to be a Sorceress.

So what is the Yang about Ones? Ones represent in Tarot a moment when we take action good or bad, light or heavy, here or there. We have exhaled air that will force the lungs to eventually inhale unless we are dead, but, still, something will happen. As mature women, we have already gone through many new beginnings, and we are acutely aware that to every beginning there is an ending. We sense a payment for every gift, if not now, then some other time. We have hit the ground running many times, and we know there is nothing necessarily masculine about it. That is partly why I’ve chosen to make the Major Arcana One a woman. She glows with power.

In each of the lesser mysteries, the Aces are a gift of that suit. In Kosmic Egg Tarot they might be seen as a bit different. For the “gift” they represent is overcoming something we were afraid of or avoided. By this time in our lives, this is what is precious, more precious than something purely new, is making new a vision of something old, or facing a deep fear. For instance, the Kosmic Egg Tarot is an old dream that I’m making new.

This is what I learned this week. One in Tarot’s Lesser and Greater Mysteries is not simply a gift, magic, destiny, sunshine that come along with no explanation. Sorceress is all grown up and faced many initiations, trials, and tribulations. One is about a new beginning, sure, but at any age, and in any gender. It is about recognizing our own i-magi-nation, or the Maji (Magician) within, and how many resources we have access to create our ever new reality. In Kosmic Egg Tarot we have faced some of our childish fears and some of our adult pains so that we can see the value in them so that we can turn the world upside down. In fact, an Ace could be called “failure” because that is a great gift to beginning the game again!  Life’s gifts often come from unexpected sources. Unworthy becomes worthy when we have new eyes when we’ve gone to a library that takes us beyond our knowing. We have finally closed the door on expectations, and opened a new door with a sign on it that says, “Play!”

The book will go into each card in depth and will include the traditional explanations for the cards, as well as my interpretations and the stories about how the drawings came to me.

Material Six

Yes, I felt like I didn’t get very personal yesterday, talking about Thanksgiving in the nicest possible way. Ugh.  Thanksgiving. It used to be my favorite holiday until I met, via TV and magazines, Martha Stewart. Martha. What did you do? So, I’m bringing in an idea of what I might use to explain Material Six, or the Six of Pentacles.

No one told me I had to do this to myself, but I took it on. The perfect, unique Thanksgiving. I did not do it just once. I did it many times. I would say this is a reversal of what could be behind Material Six. The battle within to be enough, to not be a beggar, to be so generous as to hide the neediness inside. Yeah. 

My Thanksgivings are perfectly exhausting is what they are in truth. I don’t do them anymore. In fact, to be honest, I am playing hookie with my husband from Thanksgiving. Let’s start there so you understand that I have grown out of old ideas now, and can look back at the extravagances I presented as nothing but perfectionism wrapped around me not like garlands, but like very tight ropes. I was showing off. 

Yes, I could outdo anyone on Thanksgiving, but was it giving or was it taking? It confused me. I’ll tell you my Thanksgiving table was unique and beautiful, a combination of whatever I was into or who my guests were. Sometimes, because it coincided with my mom’s birthday, there were gift bags full of Milagros and other good luck symbols, then we would have a Mesoamerican style meal. Sometimes I would pile tables together to make a square and seat 12 people in a square with the center being tall gladiolas and below it a spread of shell fish you wouldn’t believe, with each plate there was a drawn Tarot Card, and I would not tell anyone where to seat themselves. We would start the meal with a reading. OMG! Not that I hadn’t been cooking for DAYS.

The craziest Thanksgiving may have been putting together my former families at one gigantic table 24 people with completely opposing beliefs. Why? A hat passed with gratitude notes written by each person and read by another. A Jewish guy reading a Thanks for Jesus note, for instance. Why? Wasn’t thinking the whole thing through obviously.

Going to other Thanksgivings was not better for me. These were bad times when I had nothing to give, but still made things I didn’t want to make and did not receive very well. I really simply wanted to cry. In other words, my giving and receiving was all a muck. Either I was taking in my giving or giving in my receipt. This is what I believe the Material Six card will be about, perhaps, in reverse. I don’t know how I’ll find a visual image for it, but I’ll receive it. I really will. 

This is for all of us who hide from Thanksgiving because we haven’t worked it quite out.


Under “Suits” I hope to blog about the five suits of Tarot from my own point of view. You will be able to search for them via “Search” but you need to know what I call them.

The Greater Mysteries are known as the Major Arcana in Tarot. These are what storytellers would call the “Ahas” of life. They happen to us, and we respond. Yes, we lead ourselves to them, but we don’t necessarily MAKE them happen. They do happen to all of us and often more than once in a lifetime. If we are amenable, when they show up and we recognize them, we are changed forever.

There are four other suits known as the  Lesser Mysteries or Minor Arcana. They represent our habits, but they are more than just that.  They are the developing stories of our lives. They can wreak havoc in our psyche and they can be blessings (sometimes in disguise).

Commonly, the Minor Arcana suits go by designations that reflect the elemental forces or directions working themselves out in our Earthly existence, Earth, Air, Water, and Fire, and/or North, South, East, and West. We think of them as initiatic paths, where each card is a step along the way. Our special journey is identified by a mixture of those suits along the way. We don’t go East forever, sometimes we turn 180°! So, it helps to identify those suits by something recognizable and relatable to our lives, I feel and if you’re familiar with the traditional names of these suits, I’ve created a table:

Earth North Coins/Pentacles/ Diamonds Material
Air East Swords/Spades Expression
Water South Cups/Hearts Vessels
Fire West Wands/Clubs Energy

Since, my current goal is to keep the imagery relatable to the last quarter+ of the 20th century and first quarter of the 21st century, our world and general understanding, I hope that the cards will be accessible to anyone interested in learning about Tarot today.