Inside Out

Before I go any further with creating this blog/website, the deck of cards and the writing, I feel it is necessary to explain myself on a particular point. You are beginning to see some differences between my deck and the traditional Tarot deck, and I don’t do this lightly. It may seem like a reversal, and that would be a logical way to look at it, but it is more like being inside and looking out, rather than outside looking in. This is typically a “feminine” way of observing the world. For the last thirty years, my studies have led me in this direction, for better or worse. From inside the Temple of Tarot, we are growing, evolving, and from the outside looking in we are seeing a way into the magic. We are growing internally to externally in Kosmic Egg Tarot, as it may have been before. The consequence of changing gender seems surface-y at first, but it is not so for me. 

The Sorceress for instance, as opposed to The Magician, is not less than. She is a Solar Goddess! She is equal but different. She uses magic perhaps in a subtle, yet a practical way. The actions she takes to change the world. As above, so below, but inside first then outside. The Hold Two card is not about young lovers, but now it is about the sustainable love and healing of older years, and yet we are always at the beginning. It makes sense that The Architect is initiated into the Temple and thus the shadows of the pillars are opposite because he is looking into the Temple, and permitting the initiates to go out into the world in service of the secrets learned inside.

We will carry on with these inside-out interpretations of the world of Kosmic Egg Tarot and discover what we discover. I have never done the entire deck this way, but I’ve started to read reversals in a regular Tarot deck as the “inner” work of the cards. It is very fulfilling to imagine the work this way, unready somehow for the external world, but profoundly alive. We are growing possiblissity inside the Egg.

Finally! At the Beginning.

If you are just joining me at Kosmic Egg Project, let me first welcome you to Tarot Possiblissities. I am so glad you have joined in. I hope many things forward:

  • You will read and learn a lot about Tarot and other things that you hadn’t been aware of before,
  • In my latest Tarot saga, you can find plenty to relate to and laugh with me, as I am, as all of us are, a Fool
  • Discover some answers to nagging questions about life’s mysteries,
  • Finally, that we can become friends in seeing the magic in our every day lives.

Please enjoy the journey and feel free to ask any questions,

If you are like me, with 20 decks collecting dust, or have only one deck well-worn with love, I want to welcome you, too. I very much hope that Kosmic Egg Project will provide a new perspective for you to put to work. I have every intention of breaking rules even as I value them so you have the chance to develop your own, unique understanding of the cards.

Even with so many years of working with Tarot, I am faced with a new question. Is it possible to write an autobiography with Tarot Cards? I mean that seriously. As I’ve said in other places I wanted to make these cards contemporary, as the Visconti deck was contemporary to its own time. I want the images to be recognizable yet sacred in an expression of a world I consider, though full of holes, holy.

This week I’ve been spending time creating design drafts and written drafts of what I hope will be a Kosmic Egg Tarot Deck and Book eventually. The\ five cards I worked on are “Aces”, four for each of the Lesser Mystery suits, and the One in the Greater Mystery suit. They are known traditionally as The Ace of Swords, Cups, Wands, and Pentacles, respectively. In this deck they will be known as Expression, Hold, Energy, and Material Aces. The Magician in most traditional decks is Male, but I have created my One in the Major Arcana to be a Sorceress.

So what is the Yang about Ones? Ones represent in Tarot a moment when we take action good or bad, light or heavy, here or there. We have exhaled air that will force the lungs to eventually inhale unless we are dead, but, still, something will happen. As mature women, we have already gone through many new beginnings, and we are acutely aware that to every beginning there is an ending. We sense a payment for every gift, if not now, then some other time. We have hit the ground running many times, and we know there is nothing necessarily masculine about it. That is partly why I’ve chosen to make the Major Arcana One a woman. She glows with power.

In each of the lesser mysteries, the Aces are a gift of that suit. In Kosmic Egg Tarot they might be seen as a bit different. For the “gift” they represent is overcoming something we were afraid of or avoided. By this time in our lives, this is what is precious, more precious than something purely new, is making new a vision of something old, or facing a deep fear. For instance, the Kosmic Egg Tarot is an old dream that I’m making new.

This is what I learned this week. One in Tarot’s Lesser and Greater Mysteries is not simply a gift, magic, destiny, sunshine that come along with no explanation. Sorceress is all grown up and faced many initiations, trials, and tribulations. One is about a new beginning, sure, but at any age, and in any gender. It is about recognizing our own i-magi-nation, or the Maji (Magician) within, and how many resources we have access to create our ever new reality. In Kosmic Egg Tarot we have faced some of our childish fears and some of our adult pains so that we can see the value in them so that we can turn the world upside down. In fact, an Ace could be called “failure” because that is a great gift to beginning the game again!  Life’s gifts often come from unexpected sources. Unworthy becomes worthy when we have new eyes when we’ve gone to a library that takes us beyond our knowing. We have finally closed the door on expectations, and opened a new door with a sign on it that says, “Play!”

The book will go into each card in depth and will include the traditional explanations for the cards, as well as my interpretations and the stories about how the drawings came to me.

Niche Finding

What are we talking about when we say “I’m looking for my niche.”? I’m not sure I really knew until the last few days. Or I was circling it widely. I will call this an Energy Two or Two of Wands situation. Our niche in what we produce has to do with finding an audience, our style, our brand and our voice that are all uniquely our own. Some people fall into it with ease when they are young. They call those people “prodigies”. The rest of us can spend a lifetime surveying the land, waiting and waiting for our ship to come in, not entirely trusting that it ever will. Domaine is a waiting game. 

I have many skills. This makes it more difficult rather than easier for me because I am indecisive most of the time.  Then I tend to do one thing for a while and quit before I’ve really found where it will land. I have no idea where that habit comes from. Wink. SMH. Honestly, the only thing worse than having many skills is being a perfectionist. 

There is nothing about finding a niche that has to do with a lot of skills or perfectionism. Believe me! In fact, it is a whittling down of choices and expectations to those you really enjoy! This whittling and lessening of the things we thought we should do,  finally lead to a niche. It turns out that a niche is one of those “less is more” truths. 

If we expect the world, or if we wait for the world, or if we serve the world, then we do not have our niche where we can speak very clearly and boldly to people like ourselves. This is where we can accomplish the most and still have the most fun. My niche is you, the ones who stay. You’ll see. 🙂 My niche is Women Over 40 and those who love us. So if you are one, or you love one, please stay for the ride with me.